BREAKUP

                                        “BREAKUP”

  

                                         “Hate you to the core... I don’t ever want to see you again in my life...” She burst out in the phone.“Even I don’t want to see you. Just get lost...” I shouted back and hung up the phone.

             I never thought of this will happen to us...  we loved each other a lot... we cared for each other. We loved to spend our days with each other. But now we didn't even want to see each other... I came to my room. Throwing my mobile away I laid on my bed. ‘Fuck how the hell she can say like that???  She cheated me. I don’t ever want to see her again. You are not the only girl in this world just get lost.’ I said to myself with so much of frustration. 

2 DAYS LATER...

How is she supposed to say like that to me??  I thought she loved me but she lied. She cheated me. I won’t ever think of her again in my life... I need to move on. I'm not going to care whatever the hell happens to her. 

1 WEEK LATER...

I hate her to the core... I shouldn't have proposed her. I should have left her before. I shouldn't have loved her like the way I did... I'm not going to think of her again in my life... I'm going to look after my life... just get lost.

FEW MONTHS LATER...

How is she supposed to say like that??? I thought she loved me truly... But she went away... Leaving me alone she went away... why did you do this to me...? Please come back to me... I can’t live without you. Everything is reminding you off...  Whenever I see some couples going on a bike. It reminds you and me. I have taken you to so many places.  In fact you hugged me first when I was taking you to your home from your college. Still I can feel it... Whenever I see a church it reminds you. Still I can remember that cute face when you was praying there for a long time by closing your eyes.. I just stared at you... I was just looking at you as of a baby look at his Mom. When I was taking you back from the church I asked you about your prayer... but you said like a kid  “ If I said about my prayer it won’t happen in the future  so don’t ask about it” Even I don’t know what you had prayed for.. Have you prayed for this break up?? Huh? Don’t you wish to be with me? You left me... it’s all my fault I shouldn't have let you to go. I want to see you again. I can’t stop thinking about you. You are everywhere. Everything is reminding you. Come back to me.  It all happened coz of me. Coz of my ego.  I thought to see you before you go to Bangalore for your semester hols. But it didn't happen. You called in the morning and said you can’t come. It tempted me up. You went and stayed there for about a month. You didn't think about me. You just texted me rarely on Facebook. Still I don’t know how I survived that month without seeing you. We talked rarely through phone. We started to avoid each other. Our conversation always ended in an argument.  I thought of coming there to see you. But my ego stopped me. I was just counting the days to see you back. 

And finally, the day has going to come. I felt so happy coz you are going to come tomorrow and everything is going to get solved once I see you. But you failed me. I called you but you talked so formally... It made me feel worse. You stopped showing your love to me. I shouted at you. We argued again. I shouldn't have given you this pain. I know that made you leave me...we argued a lot that night. Even I wished for leaving you. But now it’s killing me so badly... your absence is killing me. I want you to be with me... Please come back...

(2-12-2017)

              “Raaaam” my wife shouted from the kitchen. “Hmm, not now.... I'm little busy in writing something... you have your dinner.”  I replied her from the study room. 

“What? Are you saying you don’t want to have your dinner??” she asked “Hmmmmm please dear... I want to finish it soon...  once after finishing this I’ll have... Now please you have your dinner and sleep soon” I replied her... 

“I have said you many times don’t skip your meal. You won’t listen to me. Do whatever you want.” she shouted. I laughed hearing this. She is like a kid to me. Even for a small issue she will argue with me. But I love it always. She is my everything.... tomorrow is her birthday so I want to present her something memorable. I thought to buy her a ring.... But Spending thousands on jewels or dresses won’t make her happy...I knew her... All she expects from me is my love... She has no interest’s in these jewels and other things which most women wish for...  I want to gift her something which really makes her feel so special...  So I decided to present her a book with a love story which is written by my own... I thought for so many months. Nothing came through my mind... Finally a good love story stroked my mind... I was just writing it... but my wife wants me to leave this and want to have the same Roti and Chana masala which she cooks for the dinner always... 'haha love you Meri Jaan But I want to finish this first..' I thought to myself and continued to write. Few hours later I finished writing the story... But now all I wanna do is keep a catchy title for this awesome love story... after so many hours of thinking I found an awesome title for this story... I wrote it on the first page... I bind the papers and wrapped it with a gift wrapper... Now I waited for the clock to tick 12.

(3-12-2017)

   Its 12 now... I went to my room... My sweet heart was sleeping like a baby... I went near to her and whispered in her ear “Happy bday Dear” she waked up like a little girl and she  smiled at me... I kissed her on her cheek and handed the gift. She felt so happy and asked with an excitation “what is there in it?”  I replied, “haha anyhow you are going to see it... just open and see it dear”. She opened up the present with so much of excitation.  She found a book and a letter in it. She read the letter 

“Hi, sweetheart... wishing you a many more happy returns of the day...  Love you a lot dear... I wanna be the first wish on your b’day and I'm sorry for disturbing you in the middle of your sleep...” reading this she smiled at me... I simply shrugged and asked her to continue with a smile. “I'm so happy to have you by my side... Love you loads... and I have written something for you dear... I thought to give something rather than giving you an ordinary gift... So I decided to write a love story for my dear... it is for you...  love you dear.” after finish reading the letter she took the book and she was about to read... I interrupted her in the middle and said “Dear I'm going to terrace... I want you to read this alone. Come there after finishing it” saying this I went upstairs... she nodded her head and opened the first page... she read the title it is “BREAKUP” I watched her face... She looked puzzled as I had said her it is a love story but the title doesn't match up with a story. I smiled and left the room. She started to read...

                              BREAKUP

          “...............................I can’t live without her... I wanna be with her... I wanna talk to her again... I wanna see her again... but I don’t know whether she is feeling the same. It has been 3 months since I talked to her after our break up. I needed her so badly. I can’t even concentrate on my work... I couldn't sleep well.

  I decided to talk with her. I dialled her number. I thought she won’t pick the call but I heard her voice. “Hello is this you?? Hello... Hello...”  I'm hearing my girl’s voice after 3 months... I felt so happy... Tears rolled down on my cheeks... I wanna say her sorry... I want her back... but I couldn't  say anything... She cried on the phone “it took 3 months for you to call me back right?? You said you won’t let me go... But you did... Hate you ... do you know how much I missed you??? I was thinking about you all the time... Can’t you understand I'm a girl even when I leave you... You should not allow me to go... you should chase me... You fool, you idiot... I need you back... love you a lot” she cried over the phone... She said everything that I thought to say... I can’t even speak... I was stunned... I simply cried... “Hello Hello??” she continued saying it... Then I replied “I'm sorry dear... I shouldn't have let you go... I want you back... Please forgive me...”

      I started to love her more after the breakup. That is the last time we ever fought. We loved each other a lot than before... It’s all coz of the BREAKUP which we had some months ago... And after few years I married her and lived happily together. I want her to be happy all the time... I will do anything for her. I don’t even wanna spend a single minute without her and today is her birthday... so I'm gifting My I meant OUR love story as your birthday gift... Love you a lot davs... just be with me always... :) with this I ended the story

Epilogue:

            I was standing on the terrace looking at the stars... she came with the teary eyes... “Hi, sweetheart!!!” I said to her without even saying anything she hugged me and said “you idiot...Why are you making me cry all the times” I smiled and replied “sorry davssssssss” before finishing the word she kissed me on the lips and shut me down... I kissed her back... “You know what I prayed on the day when you took me to the church for the first time??” I asked “what??” and she replied “I prayed that you should be the only guy whom I live with... till I die I should wanna be only with you... I wanna marry you and have your child in my womb... If not I don’t wanna live.I prayed this and now it happened”. saying this she took my hand and kept it on her stomach and said “I'm having your child with me Ram. Love you a lot”.  With the eyes full of tears I hugged her tightly and said “Love you too davs”.

MY FIRST KISS!!

MY FIRST KISSJ

*Ambulance siren*

                I don’t remember anything. All I remember is taking my grandson for a walk. But now I'm in an ambulance. My son is with me right now. I'm feeling too unconscious. I can feel someone whispering in my ears. “You will be alright.” 

*Deep silence* 

3 HOURS LATER.....!!

        “You don’t need to worry about anything it’s just a mild cardiac arrest, all he need is some rest. Don’t feel” Doctor said to My Son VICKY.  My son and my grandson came near me “Grandpa you didn't buy me a chocolate. you cheated me.” As always my 6yr old grandson comes with a complaint. Even I'm not in the situation to convince him. “Dad you’ll be alright soon. Doc said you can shift from the hospital within a week. No need to worry” my son tried to convince me. I don’t want to hear anything all I need was to see my sweetheart. yes, my wife. I know if she comes to know about my situation right now she’ll definitely get upset. But Don’t know whether I’ll be going back to my home and spend my rest of my days with her. before that, I need to see her once. I couldn't even speak. “Where is she?” I whispered to my son. He replied “DAD, mum is on the way with Priya. she’ll be here within an hour.” Hearing that I felt relaxed. Then I slept.

  I was in a deep sleep. But I heard a sound someone crying near me holding my hand. I knew it’s her. My swthrt. I opened my eyes. I saw her.  She was looking damn cute. Her sober eyes, Wrinkled face, big specs with grey hairs. As always she looked beautiful. I smiled seeing her. She shouted “If you go away leaving me here alone. I’ll kill you Ram” I laughed harder but I couldn't laugh anymore I coughed. Then she rubbed my chest and said “Don’t laugh you, idiot. I'm serious I won’t live without you. I need to spend rest of my life with you” As if we were new couples she was saying all these. I nodded my head and said “hmm. I won’t leave you alone.” she smiled and she put down her head to my chest and she rested down. I smiled coz it brought back all my memories of her. I said “I love you swthrt.” she broke down and sobbed like a child. She said “I love you too” and kissed me. Still, I can feel her soft lips. I can even die thousand times to get a kiss from her.

45 YEARS BACK....

  “swthrt, I want to see you now.” I cried like a child in my phone to her, she said “no way. You have to wait at least a month it’s our semester holidays. How can I come back from Kerala to Coimbatore now? Just wait for a month ram I’ll be back to my hubby” as always she prattled like a small kid. I said “hmm. With a sad tone.”  “Don’t be sad my hubby. I’ll give you a kiss if you laugh now.” I smiled just to get my swthrt’s kiss she passed her kiss through the phone. 

  I'm Ram doing my B.E final year at B.I.E.T. I hate my college but I came regularly just to see my sweetheart. She is my junior. I fell in love with her at the first sight. When I saw her first, she was wearing a blue colour salwar kameez. She looked angelic. She too loved me but not at the first site I think after 100th sight. I'm not a good looking guy as every girl dreams of. As I'm her senior it was not a big task for me to get her mobile number. Initially, we were just phonic friends but don’t know what made her fall for me. she too fell in love with me.  Now we are a couple. J It may look short. But it took 4 months for me to make her love this average guy: P

It was our semester holidays. She went to her hometown Cochin. During my college hours even though I'm not having any class I used to go to my college often to see her. But now she is in Kerala and I'm in Coimbatore. I still have to wait for a month to see her. Don’t know how am I going to live without seeing her. I missed her so much.

I was lying on my couch. Suddenly I got a call from her. I felt too happy. I attended her call and went to my terrace. She said “be ready tomorrow. You need to come here” I was shocked and asked “what are you saying?  How can I come there??”  “Everybody at my home is going to my cousin’s engagement at Palakkad. I'm not going.  So you need to come to my home at morning. They’ll be back only after 7 pm. So we can spend so much of time together. Understand. So I order you to come here tomorrow. I don’t want to listen to any of your excuses.” She said everything with a single breath. I really don’t know what to say her. How will I say to my mum and dad about me going to Cochin? But I didn't think about anything I just said yes I’ll b there.  The only reason is I want to see her. That’s it. Then she hung up the phone and went.  I came to my home. I thought about saying this to my mum but she won’t allow me to go to Kerala so I lied her saying am going out ooty for my friend’s engagement I’ll back by evening. I went to bed with so much of happiness. Am going to see her after so many days. I couldn't close my eyes. I just spent my time seeing her pics. I waited for my clock to tick 5. A few hours later...

“Mum I'm leaving. I’ll be bake at evg. Bye, mum. Take care.” “Hmm go safe dear. Call me once you reach there” My mother said. “Hmm, sure mum bye” saying dis I took my bike out and went to the bus stand. That is my first visit to Kerala. I haven’t gone there before. I even got the bus I’ll b there at 10 at the morning. She texted me when I entered the bus. We were chatting the whole time. All those guys in my bus were wearing lungis and they were shouting at Malayalam. I didn't understand anything they spoke I was just chatted with her on phone. I reached Kerala as she said I took a cab and went to her street. I saw her. She was waiting for me there. But she didn't saw me. Once I got the cab I hid near a car. She wore a lavender colour salwar kameez with a white border. She looked really cute. Her untied long hair kept blowing in the air and kissed her cheeks. Her fair skin glowed under the mornings light. The violet and white combination of her dress she wore made her look more Beautiful and elegant. I was watching my swthrt silently from a distance. Still, she didn't find me. She called me again and again. I took the phone and said “I’ll be there within an hour” even then she waited there. Then I went near her slowly and shouted behind her back, she screamed and turned back. After seeing me she started to shout. Her cheeks turned red. With her glowing skin tone, I can easily see it. I asked sorry but she was still angry. She walked away without saying anything. Then I shouted her name loudly. I took a rose from my bag and said “I love you swthrt. pls forgive me.” She turned to me and hugged me tightly .Everyone around there was seeing us. But she didn't mind anyone.  Then she took me to her home.

It was an apartment. As she said I was walking some few metres behind her. Coz her neighbours may see us. Then she kept her door open then I went inside. When I entered She hugged me saying “you idiot. Why the hell are you making me love you, again and again, huh?” I replied “I want to say this. you are killing me Daisy. I couldn't live without you and I mean it.”  She started to cry and said, “I won’t leave you ever.”  Then she went to the kitchen and brought me the Maggi which she cooked for me. That was her first cooking. I had. She has the same taste as of my mum does. I'm really lucky to have her. She also took me to her room and shown me all her childhood photos and jewels, she had. I was just watching her silently.  The only thing that ran through my mind is I should not leave her. I should make her happy always. She sat near to me. I wrapped my hand around her from behind placed my hands on her stomach and rested my chin on her right shoulder. I said “Daisy. Without you, I don’t want to live in this world. I should marry you. I should have my children with you. I should play with our grandchildren. When we grew old we should take them for a walk. I should be with you till my last breath. I love you dais.” listening to this She lifted her face and turned back to me. I stroked her hair. I felt compelled to move my face forward. Our faces were only a breath apart. I couldn't speak. I leaned over to kiss her. My lips met hers. We kissed. We kissed again and again. Then I kissed her lips, her cheeks, her neck and her lips again. I slid my hand under her salwar.  “Ram...” she said.  I shut her up with another kiss. She said, “love you, Ram .” Biting my lips. “You are the most amazing girl in the world” I said kissing her neck. I bit her and kissed her all the time. I wanted to draw her close and keep her with me forever. I wanted to show her how much she meant to me. I could give up anything for her. I kissed her hair and we made love for the first time.

NOW...

“swthrt. Still, I couldn't forget your first kiss” I mumbled.  “Love you Ram” she replied and kissed me on my forehead.

I’ll Never let yu go:)

                   I’ll  Never let yu goJ

                   It all happened a month before. Now I'm all alone. I used to hold her hand all the time but now I'm holding a pitcher. It has been two weeks since I left my apartment. I don’t wish to go anywhere. I even don’t want to see anyone. Everything is coz of my ego. I shouldn't have shown it to her. She was the only one I have but now even I don’t have her. I avoided all my friends. Later they too started minding their work. No one cared for me. I hurt the one who cared for me. I deserve this.  With the pitcher at one hand and the mobile at other I went to my room. As always before I sleep I used to see my Facebook profile, to see our pictures which we posted on the Valentine’s Day. I started reading all those comments where my friends posted. “Wow, yu 2 luk grt”  “Osum couples”  “Smile lyk dis always guys”. All my friends know about us. I even saw many messages. Everybody texted me after knowing about my break up. I read all those messages. Everybody tried to say the same thing that I should forget her and move on which I couldn't even think of. Suddenly a new notification popped up. ‘You have 1 new friend request.’ I was not in the mood to see it. So I logged out and continued to have my beer again. Days went with the same. A few weeks later when I opened my Facebook page again to see our pic. This new friend request disturbed me. I clicked to see who it is. It was from an unknown girl Shriya. A cute Barbie doll pic. I accepted her friend request. I received a message from her as soon as I accepted the request.  It was “HiJ” with a smiley. It reminded my Madhu. After seeing the text I replied her “hello” then she started the conversation. Said everything about her. She is from Mysore and she is doing her engineering. She is single and so on. Then she asked about me. I hesitated to answer her questions first but still something made me text her. We chatted for a while even in our first conversation. Later unknowingly I slept having my mobile in my hand. I woke up after a long gap. I felt like I've slept for decades. After I got up from my bed I searched my mobile it was under my blanket. When I opened it. I was shocked coz I had received more than 50 messages. It was all from her. I felt too sad coz I went without saying anything to her. I waited for her to come on-line and I replied “Sorry.”

Two months later.......

   “Hey sweetheart... Today you have an important presentation to do.. All the best do well I’ll pray for you...” As always she texted me first at the morning. These 2months we became too close. I’m her best buddy now. She knew everything about me, even about my break up. I replied her “Thanks a lot shriya... I’ll definitely do wellJ” With a smiley. Then I went to my office. As it was one of the important meeting all my higher officers had came from my company’s U.S branch. I started my presentation.  Presented about my team’s sales record which we provided to our U.S clients. They all were so happy as my project lead to a 5.6million$ profit for my company. Everybody appreciated me. I returned to my apartment with so much of happiness after completing all those presentation work. All I did was took my laptop out and texted her in Facebook. “shriya I did my p.p.t well and everybody appreciated me.. It’s all coz of you.. Thanks a lot...”

I texted her and waited for her reply. She replied me after an hour. “Don’t say thanks sweetheart... I wish to be with you all the time. Not only now but forever. Love you a lot...” After seeing this reply I was shocked. Coz I can’t think of anyone in Madhu’s place. Even she knows that but why she proposed me now? I really don’t know what to say. I don’t want to hurt her. I just felt numb. Later I replied her.

     “I'm sorry shriya... I can’t love anyone... I loved her and I’ll luv her...  the only girl I can think of holding my hand is Madhu...  The only girl I can think of spending my life is Madhu. Even she is not with me. I know someday she will come back to me. I'm sorry”

Sending this message I logged out my Facebook and went. So many thoughts were running in my mind. All these two months which I spent with her. She supported me during my bad phase of my life. I felt sad for her. Having these thoughts I went to Facebook to say sorry to her. I received a message from her. After reading it I was shocked and it made me to cry. Her reply was... “I came back to you Ram. Even I can’t think of holding someone’s hand other than you...  the only guy I can think of spending my life is you...!! I can’t live without you Ram... It’s me madhu!!”